I'm pretty sure that you all have had many moments where you felt that you were being used. UGHH ask me, and I'll be telling you story after story :P but no one wants to hear your sob story of how your friend back stabbed and used you just to get a guy's number...or how a girl would randomly start stalking to you as if you're their closest friend just to rip off some homework answers...or you know, something along those lines. It's honestly so stupid how people treat other people...and even more, how so-called-friends treat their friends.
"Why don't you just say what you really want and leave me alone rather than trying to keep the conversation going with lame answers? Cause you're not the only one with important things to do, you know? I have my own life to think about and sort out too, and I could be doing a ton of other things besides wasting my time talking to you, someone who obviously doesn't give a grain of interest in what I have to say anyways."
I'm the type of person who can't stand being second to anyone. If you're my friend, and you're talking to me, I want to see that you're putting in an effort in talking to me...don't you agree? I don't know :P maybe I just sound like a selfish brat to you...but honestly, I really don't like knowing that a friend is having a blast flirting with some other guy while she's half-chatting me without having any clue in the conversation we were having, and putting effortless "yeah"s and "ikr?"s. I mean it's fine if she wants to leave and chat some other day if she's busy, because it's not the fact that she's chatting another person that I'm upset about. It's that she's constantly trying to keep the sad conversation going, when she obviously isn't really even taking in anything I'm saying...do you know what I mean?
So these days have been really tough for me, like in trusting old friends and welcoming new friends... not to make this into some sappy rant, but I guess that's what it's going to become now :P (I'm sorry TT) high school is a period of life, where everything kind of gets shuffled and tossed around... and I understand that these friends may just be changing and developing into who they will become as adults...we all are making new friends, thinking about guys, want popularity... and all in all it's all good :3 because dude, me too! But it's a changing period for ALL of us... we're all going through situations and events that we aren't familiar with... but hey, as long as we're here living in and sharing one community, I just hope that we can all learn to respect and understand what's going on in each other's lives too...
Momo
